[It's a question Ginia's poured over countless times. As Hatter always said, it was never too late to walk away, but no one ever talked about life after. The lifestyle was almost like a drug, full of promises of adventures and wealth and making changes in a fucked up world. It was easy to get hooked and harder to walk away. Maybe a better person would have more success. Maybe a person with more to life for.
And the base truth was she would have never become a hunter if her parents hadn't been murdered. Never become a hunter if she didn't know Erika.
Yet if she hadn't been a hunter, what would have happened to all the lives she did change for the better? Was it selfish to think she made a difference because she was there? Or would someone else have simply taken her spot and done the same?]
I don't know. There's a lot I regret, a lot I wish was different, but there are things I'm proud of too.
The very last thing I did before coming here was save the lives of two people I care about. I think if the sum of my life was to prepare me for that moment, I could live with it.
[July 9th, Written]
And the base truth was she would have never become a hunter if her parents hadn't been murdered. Never become a hunter if she didn't know Erika.
Yet if she hadn't been a hunter, what would have happened to all the lives she did change for the better? Was it selfish to think she made a difference because she was there? Or would someone else have simply taken her spot and done the same?]
I don't know. There's a lot I regret, a lot I wish was different, but there are things I'm proud of too.
The very last thing I did before coming here was save the lives of two people I care about. I think if the sum of my life was to prepare me for that moment, I could live with it.