[He has wondered more than once where he would be if the gate to Trost hadn't been kicked in that day, just as he had secured himself a spot in the Military Police. He has wondered just as many times what he would be doing if he had never enlisted to begin with. He doesn't feel as young as she says he is.]
I don't regret picking the Survey Corps over the Military Police. I thought I would, but to be honest I don't think I could live with myself. [A long pause as he debates if he should write this next thought or not.] Sometimes I wish I'd never signed up for the military at all. Everything would just be easier that way, you know?
[July 9th, Written]
[He has wondered more than once where he would be if the gate to Trost hadn't been kicked in that day, just as he had secured himself a spot in the Military Police. He has wondered just as many times what he would be doing if he had never enlisted to begin with. He doesn't feel as young as she says he is.]
I don't regret picking the Survey Corps over the Military Police. I thought I would, but to be honest I don't think I could live with myself. [A long pause as he debates if he should write this next thought or not.] Sometimes I wish I'd never signed up for the military at all. Everything would just be easier that way, you know?