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Jean Kirstein ([personal profile] wipesfaith) wrote2014-06-06 12:08 pm

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[He doesn't know what time it is when he startles awake, just that it's still dark and the sensations pressing into him - his flesh pulling apart as he sinks deeper into water or blood or rock so hot it's liquid fire he doesn't know what but he can't breathe anymore - are more like memories, and they linger in his waking more sharply than any nightmare. Propping himself up on his elbow, trying to steady his breath, he looks across the gap between his bed and Marco's.

Pale moonlight reflects off the white of the bare mattress.]


Marco...? Hey...

[He already knows no one is there to hear him. It sinks in him like a rock dropped in a pond, with little ripples expanding to ones that reach much farther. Looks like that's all the borrowed time he'll get.

He switches on the light as he reaches for his journal, like it might prove him wrong. It doesn't. He sinks back down into the pillow. Weakly punches the mattress. Runs his hands through his sleep-disheveled hair. Squeezes his eyes shut. Turns the light off again, eventually. But he doesn't sleep much.]



[Then, at a more reasonable hour...]

[Written - Locked to Erwin and Levi]

I have a report to make, sirs. I discovered Marco Bott of the 104th training class to be missing early this morning. His things are gone too and his name isn't registered on the journal network anymore, leading me to conclude that he's returned home.

There's nothing else out of the ordinary to report at this time.

[This is so much easier to get out in writing. Immediately after, he'll make a more casual public announcement, because he probably ought to.]

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Marco Bott went home.

[Where he will die, and no one will see, and no one will take the time to give him a proper burial because in the end, there is nothing to distinguish him from the scores of corpses that will be reduced to little but bone fragments and ashes and lingering memories. There's a long pause that won't be reflected in the written message, as he tries to think of something worthwhile to add and fails.]

Just thought people should know.

[But some time later, an addendum will appear at the bottom of the message:]

Anyone know anything about raising sheep?

[Action]

[When he's not training at the Battle Dome or caring for his horse at the stables (recently, he's been going out for longer leisure rides, and today won't break the habit), Jean can be found at the small pen erected outside the Flame Building, where he wonders what the hell to do with the now morbidly fluffy lamb it houses. Aside from slaughtering it and eating like a king, because Marco would've gotten all offended at the suggestion. Speaking of Jean's distasteful, overdone jokes, the lamb in question probably looks a bit miffed that he's here instead of its proper owner.]
revolutionarygirl: (duelists)

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[personal profile] revolutionarygirl 2014-06-06 07:28 pm (UTC)(link)
[Unsurprisingly, Utena has been plagued by the same nightmares. She had been hoping to be able to rest once she returned to the enclosure, but luck just isn't on her side, is it? So she's doing her own training at the Battle Dome, but her moves are desperate and wild. She's pushing herself.

She can't forget it. Any of it. Not the nightmares of her flesh peeling away and the unbearable heat, and not the deeper memory--one much older than her memories of the draft, years older--of the girl impaled with swords. Why can't she forget?! Why, why, why--]
whiskytraitorfirefight: (STATUS: Pensive)

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[personal profile] whiskytraitorfirefight 2014-06-06 07:32 pm (UTC)(link)
[With Kakashi still recovering and not in the mood for training at all, Ginia skips out on her regular schedule. She's outside the bakery, enjoying a snack and checking up on the journal when she sees Jean's message.

Marco.

Even knowing it's not something Jean would lie about, Ginia flips to the list of villagers and scrolls through the list. She reaches the end without seeing Marco's picture and returns to the top to check again. Only after a third check does she stop.

Life isn't fair and it was only a matter of time before they were all sent home. But Marco... to have died so young, couldn't he have had a few more months? A few more years? A chance to grow up and enjoy life?

None of that now. There's Jean to check up on. You do what you can for the living.

Ginia grabs her back and heads back to Flame Building. She spots Jean by the lamb pen - not just a spindly little lamb anymore - and whistles to catch his attention.

Three weeks ago, Ginia would have walked over and hugged him. Now, she stands several feet away.]


/I'm sorry./
Edited 2014-06-06 19:33 (UTC)
revolutionarygirl: (confession)

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[personal profile] revolutionarygirl 2014-06-07 02:51 am (UTC)(link)
[She does go to the second floor, needing something to cool down with. At the sound of Jean's voice, she jumps a little. Feeling bad about it (why does she keep doing that? They're friends), she laughs to try and cover it up.]

Heh, thanks. [Except she notices that he's giving her a look. She's not completely clueless.] Yeah, I... I guess I was.

[She sounds extremely distant.]
sketchingideals: (☆ hoping things will turn out okay)

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[personal profile] sketchingideals 2014-06-07 03:24 am (UTC)(link)
[Jeb is coming back home from the flower shop of all places, holding a small potted plant. The nightmares he's been having have really been getting to him, and he figures that since he feels so at peace around nature, having a small bit of nature in his room might help. When he passes the flame building, he notices Jean and stops.

While he smiles and waves at the lamb (what an adorable fellow!), he's not sure if he should talk to Jean himself. The last time they did was on the battlefield, and--Jeb actually winces at the memories. He wasn't himself that day, and he knows it. He should apologize for how he acted, but...!

Not only that, but he knows Marco went home. He doesn't know the extent of Jean's friendship with Marco, but he did go to school with both of them. He at least knows they're friends.]
Edited 2014-06-07 03:27 (UTC)
whiskytraitorfirefight: (STATUS: Hesistant)

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[personal profile] whiskytraitorfirefight 2014-06-07 03:25 am (UTC)(link)
[Ginia knew Jean wasn't quite avoiding her, but he wasn't seeking her out either. Things were different now, expected. He's seen her as she is and she doesn't judge him for it. They'll have to address things at some point, but now isn't the time. Not with Marco gone. It's sad how many people from his world disappeared.]

/If there's anything you need, feel free to ask./

[That hasn't changed, though she doesn't expect him to take up the offer. Besides, what could she do? She can't bring Marco back, can't turn back time.]
sketchingideals: (☆ i'm sorry...)

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[personal profile] sketchingideals 2014-06-07 06:58 pm (UTC)(link)
...hi. [He glances away from Jean quickly, suddenly feeling extremely uncomfortable. Maybe he should have just kept walking.] You're... um... you're looking better.
savedtheworld: (warmsmile)

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[personal profile] savedtheworld 2014-06-07 07:00 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm sorry to hear about Marco. He's a nice friend. [Aang didn't get to know him half as well as he'd like to, but they did go to school together and all. Aang knew it must be tough on Jean - if the situations were reversed, this definitely would have eaten away at Marco.] I'm gonna miss him, and I'm gonna be hopeful for him.

So you... want to raise sheep? That sounds really nice of you, Jean! The trick is to raise them with love and affection.
revolutionarygirl: (fruit of the forbidden tree)

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[personal profile] revolutionarygirl 2014-06-07 07:01 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm not pushing myself too hard. [She hates how defensive that came out. It's usually so much easier to talk to Jean, and it's not like her to snap at him like that.] ...sorry. This... isn't like me at all, is it?

[What is "like" her, anyway? She wanted to be a prince... but the horrors she had seen back then--are they what princes face? Is this the true nature of the world? She doesn't want to accept it.]
sketchingideals: (☆ tell me you're okay)

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[personal profile] sketchingideals 2014-06-07 07:52 pm (UTC)(link)
[He flinches at the defensive words, although he doesn't blame Jean for them.]

That's right... we have. And that's... that's good. Of course we'd be better, right? I'm sorry. [He's not a good liar, is he? His own words are pretty tense, and the only thing he really means is the apology. Nothing is really better, is it? It won't be for a while, if at all.] We can... relax now.

[Except he can't. There's too much shame he feels for him to possibly relax, nightmares aside...]
whiskytraitorfirefight: (STATUS: Observer)

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[personal profile] whiskytraitorfirefight 2014-06-08 06:46 am (UTC)(link)
[As fine as everyone else, no doubt. The nightmares, the lingering memories, the feeling of being watched, the memories from the battlefield, they're all sharing them in various forms. That on top of Marco leaving... she doubts he's fine. One day maybe, but not now.

But she doesn't press. Not her place to presume how he's feeling. But she can still give advice.]


/Don't bottle things up. Find someone to talk to./
savedtheworld: (sickly)

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[personal profile] savedtheworld 2014-06-08 07:21 am (UTC)(link)
That's not a nice way to talk about a sheep. Did you ever try hugging it?
forelocked: (seven)

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[personal profile] forelocked 2014-06-08 02:03 pm (UTC)(link)
Hey, sorry about your friend.

[Not that he knows anything about Marco, but going back home is just about the worst thing he can think of.]

Might be a book on sheep at the library.

[Because Farlan does not know shit about sheep.]
onearmedexmerc: (plotting)

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[personal profile] onearmedexmerc 2014-06-09 05:38 pm (UTC)(link)
[Evan had noticed the small pen and it's inhabitant before when he had left the Flame building. Never had seen anyone around it before today though.

Curiously, the young man who was at the pen now pinged something Ginia had told him when talking about the allies she had made in the village. Ah well, he might recall it later.

Still, the lamb was adorable. Evan wandered over to the pen, leaning on it to get a closer look.]


Is she your's?

[Not that Evan was sure the lamb was a she, but it was cute and fluffy and she felt a lot better than it.]
savedtheworld: (bored)

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[personal profile] savedtheworld 2014-06-09 06:13 pm (UTC)(link)
Okay... I'm pretty sure that's just a headbutt of love. He just wants to get close to you! He can't hug the way he is because he's got stubby little sheep legs and no arms. So that's the closest he can do to hugging you! So it's up to you to make it a real hug.

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